Meeting Jesus

First, I must be honest and say that my fasting is over.
It lasted only for two days.
Yesterday, before go to bed, I felt "I can do it another day."

And I dreamed.
I was eating bread with my son and another boy with black curly hair.
He said "you can stop.  Because you have all the bread here"

It was OK when I woke up this morning.
I was leaving the house at 9am to go to the church I attend.

Then, it happened.

I sent a message to my friend whom I was supposed to meet, and I felt an attack.
I fell down on the floor and I felt paranoid all over the body.
My son was a witness.  My legs and arms were twisted.
I felt a big fear.  It was so painful.
I felt my face was twisted.

I prayed,
"Lord, please come with your holly spirit right now, and set me free.  If my sins are forgiven, fill me up with your Holy Spirit, heal me and help me.  You are the only one savior for me.  I know it is the demons."  My hands and feet turned black.  I was cold all over.

Then I felt the light came down.

And all of the sudden, I spoke in tongue.  I couldn't help it because if I do not do that I knew I was dying.  So I let it out.

Then I was sure, I could do it.
I said (somehow in English) "In the name of Jesus, I command you, demons, all the lying spirit should go right now out of my body.  You do not belong here because I am the body of Jesus Christ, you go away right now, you can't lay a finger on me."

I felt clearly something went out of the body.  And I felt warmth back inside of me.
Then I heard or should I say, I felt a voice, now I am sure, it was Jesus.  "Now you can take off.  You died and rose with me form the death."
But I felt so weak and didn't think I could stand up.
I said to Him, "but Lord, I don't think I can stand up.  Send Ryo Michelangelo to help me"  because I was not yet able to speak.  Then, Ryo Michelangelo, who were scared and stayed away ran back beside me and stretched his arm and say "Mom, you need to stand up now."
I took his hand and stood up.  Ryo said, "Mom, it's OK you can weigh on me.  I will support you."
Somehow it didn't sound like him.  I believe Jesus made him say that.

I permit myself to eat a piece of bread.

How am I?
I CAN NOT BE BETTER!!!

I went back to normal.  But I completely feel it was the beginning of a new life!
My skin feels new.  My view is clearer and I have more peace and freedom.

I am free from the sins.

Few month ago, I somehow felt that God wanted me to go to New Zealand.
And a name of a woman came back to me over and over.  That name I haven't got among my friends lists.
But I wasn't so aware of that till recently.  One of the reasons that I didn't pay a good attention to that message is because I didn't think that I would ever go to New Zealand.

I don't drive, I am not really fond of animals or nature.   Out door activities are not my strong point.  I am very much spoilt in European way of life.

But I found a guy called Torben Sondarbaarg when I was in the crises of fate.  A friend sent me this movie down here.

You see, my first idea of being the fast is from this.  I really needed to be connected with Jesus personally.  I really wanted to be a Christian.  I have been always wondering "If I was a Christian,  why am I so different from the first disciples of Jesus?"  I didn't understand why Christians still worship God on Sundays, and celebrate Christmas on December 25th.  I didn't understand they call the Jesus' rising from the death as Easter.  God gave us good technologies to discover more of the truth.  We know better of that time, still they follow the system that pagans made in order to swap Christianity and Mithraism.  I said Martin Luther is a looser.  He didn't do the job enough.
And all of the sudden I found a Danish man of my same age,  say the same thing.  And I was on fire.  Again I felt the God's calling.  I need this baptisma.
So I tried to reach someone in his team.  But I either get no reply or I did have one reply but it was a christian who were anti-Reformation.
Then I saw a movie from this team that was a testimonial movie.  There I found a couple and they were from New Zealand!!  I looked up in the team fellowship map and there were lots of marks in that small island of New Zealand.
I didn't want to be disappointed, again.  So I prayed "Lord, if it is your will for me to go to New Zealand, let the first pin I click to be them and let them reply in one day."  And I clicked the mark and there appeared a picture of that couple I saw in the movie, and I saw the name of the wife and I was freaked out.  It was the name that was repeated in my head some times ago!  So as you can guess by now, I got the reply of my email the next day.
God wants me to be baptised from them in New Zealand.

Dear Lord,
I thank You for being in me and saving me in exchange of Your blood.  Thank You for blessing me with the two days experience of fasting. Compare to the pain and suffer You went through for me, what I experienced is minimum worth not even 1 / 10 billion.  And yet You replied and filled me with the Holy Spirit.  If You want me to go to New Zealand, I know it will happen and I am willing to obey You.  So help me God.  In the name of Jesus.     Amen