Tao to Jesus

So we are still here. The world stood still and it wasn't destroyed. To be honest....  I am disappointed. Because I really want Jesus to come back and end this lying world.

I today, signed off officially from the "church" that I was attending.  I was a member there so they count me for the services. It is a very very small church.  With no regular pastor.  It has a head church in the place that takes 1 hour by train to reach there.  The head church, there is 3 pastors.  One major pastor, his wife pastor and his daddy pastor.  The major pastor comes to our church every three months. To be honest I am OK about that. I didn't leave the church because of the critical reasons. I was seeking for a true Church and a true fellowship in Jesus, as a family in Jesus. There are many stories I can tell about it.  They are all kind people.  But not disciples of Jesus. They are good friends there is no Fellowship of Jesus. I learned so far, that being a disciple of Jesus doesn't always mean being nice tender people.  My church people are nice, their doing is good, but they don't have LOVE in Jesus.  LOVE is ris...

I was going down the river Neil on a small boat with some of my people. Somebody was worried about sharks. But Jesus said "It is not the time to worry about sharks anu more, for sharks are already there." Then a shark jumped and he took a man from my people.  It ate him in the water. Jesus said "Sharks are sharks.  Leave the sharks as they do." Somehow, I was not scared because I knew it wouldn't hurm me. Good morning to you, all. Ryo started drawing few minutes ago and you know what he is drawing?

First, I must be honest and say that my fasting is over. It lasted only for two days. Yesterday, before go to bed, I felt "I can do it another day." And I dreamed. I was eating bread with my son and another boy with black curly hair. He said "you can stop.  Because you have all the bread here" It was OK when I woke up this morning. I was leaving the house at 9am to go to the church I attend. Then, it happened. I sent a message to my friend whom I was supposed to meet, and I felt an attack. I fell down on the floor and I felt paranoid all over the body. My son was a witness.  My legs and arms were twisted. I felt a big fear.  It was so painful. I felt my face was twisted. I prayed, "Lord, please come with your holly spirit right now, and set me free.  If my sins are forgiven, fill me up with your Holy Spirit, heal me and help me.  You are the only one savior for me.  I know it is the demons."  My hands and feet turned black.  I ...

At the end of the second day of fasting. It is just the second day.  I was praying and reading bible. It is so hard and saturn came to me.  I actually heard a voice in my year. "You can quit now.  Fasting doesn't mean anything. You are a mom lasing 7 y.o boy. You can't fast!" So I prayed to God.  "If it is really your will for me to stop.  I will stop.  Please let me know through my son." My son was out for the whole day today being invited for dinner from his friends family.  So he came back home and took a bath.  I brushed his teeth and tack him into bed. Normally I pray for him.  I did pray for him also tonight.  But tonight, he started praying for me.  "Lord, please release my mom from the pain and suffering.  I love her so much.  I want her to be happy."  I cried for joy. He does pray sometime.  But it is normally after he learned something and normally he prays for his own improvements, protection ...

Happy Holy 7th-day, Christians. I started writing this blog yesterday, and today I was just reading the Bible. It is my second day in the fast.  So far Saturn hasn't take power over me, yet. My son is going out with his friends.  Thank God that I can have this moment that I am alone and focus on The Book of Act. There I saw the description of Mark. The pastor of the Church I am attending wrote a book recently and he mentioned Mark.  At that time when I read that book, I was surprised about how dreadfully apostle Paul despised the young man, Mark and about how dramatically Paul improved his opinion after almost 17-19years. Since Mark attracted my attention, I decided to take a little note on Mark's foot step. Year Bible Disciples Mark Memo Act:12:12 King Herod　Antipas’ prisoning Peter.  Peter got released by an angel and head straight to widow Mary’s house, where church was hold that time. First appear in the Bible. Rich boy? Big...

Does God really need agents? I had been a christian since I was 4.  Then I turned suspicious about the organization called church, then, bible.  It was easier for me to think that what is said in bible is just a mythology.  Then I doubted Jesus. "He was a brilliant man but not an only Mesajah.  Buddha and Muhammad are also Mesajah."  But somehow, I have never doubted the existence  of the God. My name is Irene.  I am from Japan.  I am half Taiwanese. I have a 7yo son. I'm a single mom. I am an author of children's books. But here I want to write about Jesus. My own personal relation with Him. How I returned to the fate of Jesus, the one and only Mesajah. Today, I started being in the fast. It is not easy being in the fast when you have a child.  He needs to eat.  That I must cook always with my empty tammy. I decided to do this only for 5 days, asking for God's will.  I need to find a way (TAO) to become a true disciple...